That Guy

THAT GUY

I Tell myself that are you still recongize that person that you see in those photos ? I tell myself that he look so familiar but i cant really remember that who is him ,memories flash back into my head and try to squeeze those stuff into my head and makes me headche ,I thi nk that i know him because that used to be who i am !

I cant believe how does that feels when you cant remember the person who you used to be ! have you really chang use that much or just hate to think about the person who you used to become ,is it that bad ?

Blessing

Blessing the best things in your life
Love everything that you have
apperciate what you have now
enjoy your life and no worries

Job VS Real Life

Job VS Real life

I'm still Surpise that how Job effect me in my emotion,personal & personalities .I am not a workerholic ,I do judge on the things on how it benefited me ,i usually wont make a deal on something that doesnt help me but most time the results turn out to be opposite because when you think you are smart enough to make yourself a winner but in the end you still doesnt get anything except people get you .

My Job is pretty Simple with Basic skills ,but it isnt really that easy and it not really hard ,you can do it and everybody can do it ,funny thing that is the obstacles that keep blocking my way ,of course it makes me learns lots of humanity which sounds extremely sacrastic because it just a sales assistant post ,it really depends of point of view that you stand ,sometimes the action ,decision and the tone of things does effects on the way other people judge you while you judge on other things ,in different angle when you done the right thing ,certains still have negative reaction .I guess this is reality !

I hate the fact that this job makes me quickly angry and frustrated sometimes ,when i back at home look at myself at the mirror wonder how the people are going to think about when the pissed off face display on my face ,when i basiclly laugh about somebody it usually turns it back onto my back ,funny much ?

Cant believe that i will pissed about small things ,i notice that recently i like to said that i dont like to deal with idiots & how idiots makes me a bitch ,i cant stand with people who work slow like a shit ,i also hate that they wants to make things simplistic but in the end its become even more complicated ,dont you think that it is slap onto the face ?

I love and hate the job at the same time ,its feels like when you in love with someone ,because you love how much it gives you but also hate the feeling when you deal with it .well if the job is boring then why you still work ? thats why in the end of the day when you hate it but inside your heart you still glad that you hate to love it because at least its something you worth to love than something you dont even bother to mention

The sky ,,,,still so blue

Still looking at the sky ,its so blue and its never been that way ,looking at the mirror ,for a long long time ,i feels great about my apperances ,Probably is the reason that i successfully lose my weight ,the time has pass really fast ,I cant believe that its almost been a year from now ,People who know DEREK doesnt really know Tan Wei Hong ,In memories ,The fat guy who walks infront you doesnt turn out who you expect to be ,looking at my own shadow under the light wondering am i has change ?!

I keep remind myself that Must remember who I used to be and should know how that character feels like ,hate that couldt control what i wish to had but starts to againsting person that who i used to be ,I used to be Fat and i know that kind of feelings and how people would treat you ,as a person like me who used to be somebody shoes ,Shouldt that i should know their feelings better ,but how come i'd critic someone else who i used to looks like ?
Am I change that much ?! Check the comparison carts ,I felt that i had done so many bad's .

I'm too emotional ,I want everything to be perfect ,I can tell you that I hate and love my job at the same moment ,i couldt accept people keep giving my excuses of certain things that couldt be done at the time,for me a task when you couldt handle over ,you are no excuse given but failure tags all over ,that just my rules ,i hate that i being bossy because i hate bossy people but why i had this type of atitude ? thats why we should never judge somebody because characteristic that you hate probably is in one of yours .

Life's is easy at some point ,I dont treat it as hard as people describe ,I know what i am doing and what i am talking ,i know that i keep making mistakes and decision that i should done but am i really chop it and end it like what i should do ? i hope that i am not just keep talking but doesnt achieve it ,must be some evils runs into my mind and telling me to go out of control .

it isnt a excuse but its your choice .I take my choice ,i should be no regret but at some point i always feels guilty