I'm tired of crying ,I am ,Today its been the third time i cry this month .when you look at me you may never expect i can be this emotional but the truth is i am more than you could ever think i can be .
I really tired ,I tired of feelings misunderstood and losing ,People look at me as a happy bubbly person who never take anything serious but do you know what inside my heart ? do you know how i feel ? why everyone are like that .i do take things serious ,its not that i want my life full of failure and losing but the thing is I cant control it and i dont know where to go ,nothing to do . I want you to know that i might not always be that happy and positive when i didt happy with certain situation .You can tell by my facial expression ,I dont understand why you people always think i have bad personalities or bad atitude ,I dont do anything wrong .it just reflex on my face of how i feels about it .
I Feels soo tired ,i am i dont know how many times i said this but i think that you people never understand how i feels ,i wish ,i wish you could just be in my shoes and place in the same place as i am ,try to think in my way because then you will understand why i make this decision and why i feel that way .I dont want to cry in the public or infront other people because i dont want you people think that i am such a weak person but i want you to know that I am a human also ,why you people never understand that .I am a human too .i have emotion ,can you just stop by and listen to me for once ?!
Today when sister talk to my on the phone about my future ,I cant control my emotion the tears come out from my eyes .Sister told me that i shouldt cry that much because i am a man .I grow up and shouldt cry that easily .Job career and future is everywhere ,it just depends on how you choosing .I dont want to cry anymore .I know that i am not going to promise this but i will try my best to hold back those tears .I'm just tired you know ...sometimes feels like maybe leaving this world would be the best choice
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Question & Answer
I stole this from Hui theng blog ,Just copy and paste her format .
1. What is the meaning of Friend?
- A Real Friend will always taking care about you ,no matter where you go or what your decision ,they will respect it and give the best bless in this world .
2. What is your most favourite thing to do ?
- Go out with my family because I apperciate every single moment with them
3. If you are given a chance to reverse your life,will you go back to the past ?
- If i really have that chance ,i will apperciate every single chance in my life because i feels like i lose and miss too much great thing in my life .
4. How old are you?
- 19 Years old
5. Is there someone in your heart right now
- not really ! because my heart is empty and i been hurt by someone too much
6. Do you feel loved in this world ?
- I do because i surround by the family member who give the love and truly understand the meaning
7. What are you afraid to lose the most ?
- My parents because i dont know what will happen I not sure i have the passion to live without them
8. What you wish to do now?
- I wish to have second chance in my life to do something that i should and not regret
9. If there's someone that you love, would you confess to him/her ?
- I will when i know she is the one
10.Do you think you are special?
- I do because sometimes i feels like a main character from a hero movie ,haha
11. What are the requirements that you not wish from your other half?
- Dont respect my parents or my decision
12. What do you think is your purpose in life?
- apperciate every single moment with the person u love ,dont regret and embrace it .
13. Do you Hate yourself sometimes ?
- I do ,sometimes i try to kill myself because i hate myself but i wont gonna do it because it will hurt someone who love me soo much
14. If you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
- Vegetables because it good or me
15. If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick?
- I actually wants to choose rich [,most people will] but i reliaze that being happy is the best thing in the world ,if there's choice between being rich but not happy .of course i will choose happy because money can buy anything but not happiest
16. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
- my personalities because soemtimes i did or said something stupid
17. What is the most prized possession that you wish you can bring to Heaven?
- Parents because i love them
18. Name one love song that you have in mind and why?
- Over you [by chris daughtry]
19. What is your plan when you become an old man or old woman?
- Having many grandson/daughter
20. Do u think ur Life is meaningful enough?
- I think my life is meaningful ..
1. What is the meaning of Friend?
- A Real Friend will always taking care about you ,no matter where you go or what your decision ,they will respect it and give the best bless in this world .
2. What is your most favourite thing to do ?
- Go out with my family because I apperciate every single moment with them
3. If you are given a chance to reverse your life,will you go back to the past ?
- If i really have that chance ,i will apperciate every single chance in my life because i feels like i lose and miss too much great thing in my life .
4. How old are you?
- 19 Years old
5. Is there someone in your heart right now
- not really ! because my heart is empty and i been hurt by someone too much
6. Do you feel loved in this world ?
- I do because i surround by the family member who give the love and truly understand the meaning
7. What are you afraid to lose the most ?
- My parents because i dont know what will happen I not sure i have the passion to live without them
8. What you wish to do now?
- I wish to have second chance in my life to do something that i should and not regret
9. If there's someone that you love, would you confess to him/her ?
- I will when i know she is the one
10.Do you think you are special?
- I do because sometimes i feels like a main character from a hero movie ,haha
11. What are the requirements that you not wish from your other half?
- Dont respect my parents or my decision
12. What do you think is your purpose in life?
- apperciate every single moment with the person u love ,dont regret and embrace it .
13. Do you Hate yourself sometimes ?
- I do ,sometimes i try to kill myself because i hate myself but i wont gonna do it because it will hurt someone who love me soo much
14. If you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
- Vegetables because it good or me
15. If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick?
- I actually wants to choose rich [,most people will] but i reliaze that being happy is the best thing in the world ,if there's choice between being rich but not happy .of course i will choose happy because money can buy anything but not happiest
16. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
- my personalities because soemtimes i did or said something stupid
17. What is the most prized possession that you wish you can bring to Heaven?
- Parents because i love them
18. Name one love song that you have in mind and why?
- Over you [by chris daughtry]
19. What is your plan when you become an old man or old woman?
- Having many grandson/daughter
20. Do u think ur Life is meaningful enough?
- I think my life is meaningful ..
I dont know what to do
I received my SPM result ,it is worst than what i expect .I know that i am ruined my future career ,the problem is i always know how to talks instead of making a statement to prove my point ,REAL friend always said the word that wakes you up but sametimes it also the hurtful way ,I admit that i hate the feelings of loser but i know the fact that they give me a reality check to wake me up .
I hate that i always try to use to fast forward in my life ,when i have the great oppurnity to do something great ,i always blew it away .I dont know why and i always repeating the same damn mistakes ,feels like i am twisted while thinks that is other people problems ,i never really reliaze that what is my own problem .this personalities of mine ,dont know whether is good or not ,I always rub people in wrong way .I DO !
Sometimes i hate that why i am not born in rich family ! But i know that when i have this mind ,i am in really bad shape because when i return to be the real wei hong ,i am bless that i have this great family tree that makes a stronger me ,they given me the best thing they ever could I just didt know how to apperciate it ,people said life is about luck ,u have the talend and dont have the luck ,you still cant make it anyway ,i agreed with it but i think that i always resting on it and not take the stand .
when people live in certain ages ,they know what they want and try their best to achieve it ,I hate myself for not knowing my thing ,why i am like this ,until today i am still struggle to find the way that belongs to me .god knows .until today i dont know what will happen tomorrow ,until today i still wish that god can give me something great but at this moment i know that i am writing because this time i finally learn my lesson for writing all my stuff
this time this moment i wish ,i wish i really knows . I really wish .
I hate that i always try to use to fast forward in my life ,when i have the great oppurnity to do something great ,i always blew it away .I dont know why and i always repeating the same damn mistakes ,feels like i am twisted while thinks that is other people problems ,i never really reliaze that what is my own problem .this personalities of mine ,dont know whether is good or not ,I always rub people in wrong way .I DO !
Sometimes i hate that why i am not born in rich family ! But i know that when i have this mind ,i am in really bad shape because when i return to be the real wei hong ,i am bless that i have this great family tree that makes a stronger me ,they given me the best thing they ever could I just didt know how to apperciate it ,people said life is about luck ,u have the talend and dont have the luck ,you still cant make it anyway ,i agreed with it but i think that i always resting on it and not take the stand .
when people live in certain ages ,they know what they want and try their best to achieve it ,I hate myself for not knowing my thing ,why i am like this ,until today i am still struggle to find the way that belongs to me .god knows .until today i dont know what will happen tomorrow ,until today i still wish that god can give me something great but at this moment i know that i am writing because this time i finally learn my lesson for writing all my stuff
this time this moment i wish ,i wish i really knows . I really wish .
Monday, January 26, 2009
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR* Wish you all the best in this new chinese new year ,have a good relationship with your family & friends .have great career and good health
wish you all the best
Friday, January 23, 2009
The Answer That you probably wonder until you in that situation
We have so many questions in our life and we always looking for answers to fill our curiousity ,many times in our life is whether talk/gossip about other people or talks about ourself .The question that running in our minds we might always asking people for the answers ,sometimes we probably dont understand or didt choose to believe what we have heard from the answer because it is not what we expect or wish but its actually truth .being young is a good thing because we still new to everything but it also a worst thing because you never can know what happen next .the life game is fun but risky
when we always looking for our answer to fill in our question .no matter how many people you ask .how many times you ask yourself or how many hours you look up in the end of the day you probably not happy with the answer and think that there's another choice .when you reach in certain age or place or circumstance .you probably didt notice but during that process .you secretly understand why is that and the answer and the reason behind all of it .it might not be good but its reasonable .all our curious is throw back and now we know it
when we always looking for our answer to fill in our question .no matter how many people you ask .how many times you ask yourself or how many hours you look up in the end of the day you probably not happy with the answer and think that there's another choice .when you reach in certain age or place or circumstance .you probably didt notice but during that process .you secretly understand why is that and the answer and the reason behind all of it .it might not be good but its reasonable .all our curious is throw back and now we know it
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
A Long Heavy Blog post about what happen recently
How are you ! this is the first sentense for me who didt write blog for a quite long time but its actually not really that long period just that i'm busy with everything with my life .times pass soo fast .i couldt mange to catch up things that i wish i could in life and things happen .
So right here i'm here to update for what happen in my life recently .so ,what can I said about ? erm lets said with my job .ever since working in Gap i can said that its a good experience .the stuff are really nice to me .they taugh me and give me lesson of fashion material etc and being real nice to me .treat me as part of the family .of course there's pressure working in there .because afterall even though Gap is not that big huge branded but it still a Branded from America .sometimes i dont even understand but my performances may be a bit low at certain time ,i am blaming myself for not in that situation and not being the best because i know that i could do better ,even that their are nice to me and didt scream or yell to me when i did something wrong but we cant always relay on people to help us .you never know what that perso think about you behind their mask ,thats why we always have to do our best to prove them that we can work . working in gap give me some life experience .some customers are really friendly but some are kinda bullshit .they just act that they really 'rich' i mean come on i never seen a LV or Gucci in my life ? bitch please I even know that you using the fake one ,so dont act your shitty atitude infront me .i know tons of rich people who are friendly and 100 times richer than you .but its working time so i must put that game face on .even though i am angry but still ...have to smile to the customers .this is call sosial and working .if you dont know these .then you are out and cant survive in this cruel world .
how about myself ? I'm doing good working and spend money on clothes and jeans .i feels that i change a lots in terms of both body and mind .good news is i lose weight .yay ! now i can look at least good in clothes .ot saying that skinny or fit but at least is isnt fat ! but i feels that right now my personalities is change a bit .i feels that i become more materialistic .you probably dont understand my defination but it just hard to tell .i just know that i have to step up in my life .i want to be a rich people .dont ever let myself end up being a sosial loser ! i love the life of branded and frame even though it just beautiful from outside but no matter how hard it takes i must get to the destination that i want .my body health is not that good compare because [its complicated] but you can said that i look whitter but not as healthy as i was ! sometimes working can be really tired .end of the day when you back home .seeing your family members and specially your parents home meal .it could be really touching
life is tough and we still gonna continue to reach our dream
all the best in this 2009
So right here i'm here to update for what happen in my life recently .so ,what can I said about ? erm lets said with my job .ever since working in Gap i can said that its a good experience .the stuff are really nice to me .they taugh me and give me lesson of fashion material etc and being real nice to me .treat me as part of the family .of course there's pressure working in there .because afterall even though Gap is not that big huge branded but it still a Branded from America .sometimes i dont even understand but my performances may be a bit low at certain time ,i am blaming myself for not in that situation and not being the best because i know that i could do better ,even that their are nice to me and didt scream or yell to me when i did something wrong but we cant always relay on people to help us .you never know what that perso think about you behind their mask ,thats why we always have to do our best to prove them that we can work . working in gap give me some life experience .some customers are really friendly but some are kinda bullshit .they just act that they really 'rich' i mean come on i never seen a LV or Gucci in my life ? bitch please I even know that you using the fake one ,so dont act your shitty atitude infront me .i know tons of rich people who are friendly and 100 times richer than you .but its working time so i must put that game face on .even though i am angry but still ...have to smile to the customers .this is call sosial and working .if you dont know these .then you are out and cant survive in this cruel world .
how about myself ? I'm doing good working and spend money on clothes and jeans .i feels that i change a lots in terms of both body and mind .good news is i lose weight .yay ! now i can look at least good in clothes .ot saying that skinny or fit but at least is isnt fat ! but i feels that right now my personalities is change a bit .i feels that i become more materialistic .you probably dont understand my defination but it just hard to tell .i just know that i have to step up in my life .i want to be a rich people .dont ever let myself end up being a sosial loser ! i love the life of branded and frame even though it just beautiful from outside but no matter how hard it takes i must get to the destination that i want .my body health is not that good compare because [its complicated] but you can said that i look whitter but not as healthy as i was ! sometimes working can be really tired .end of the day when you back home .seeing your family members and specially your parents home meal .it could be really touching
life is tough and we still gonna continue to reach our dream
all the best in this 2009
Thursday, December 25, 2008
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