Thursday, October 29, 2009

Just enjoy my life

Just enjoy my life because my life is great and full of colour ...

love

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Have a certain Emotion Breakdown

Sometimes I'll hate a certain Emotion Breakdown ,That kind of upset feelings make you really nervous and no clue at all ,you just feels really tired frustrated and angry .Yeah that emotion call HATE
i want to control my emotion but i cant sometimes ,call me a bad actor but i such a failure if you put me into a scandalous society ,I Hate things about me in the pass ,look into the class where i used to sit ,cant believe i used to be that sterotype ,hate of being ingore and 'excistent' which i used to be no-one in the class during high school year ,I HATE IT .Funny that now i have change in mental and how i look & dress but my personalities is still the same ,i still have a good heart just that i'm more pride & critical !
HATE I hate that i'm not good enough to handle tough emotion breakdown and fake fucking bitches ,Too lazy to type out and not even worth to mention .
This such A STRONG WORD .I dont even know why i use it to express but i'm sure its just for certain moment because if i look back to what i wrote .i'd LMAO .

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Nervous & Excited

Okay ,I admit that my SPM Result is very bad and out of my expectation ,I always said that i will try my best to achieve good result but the truth is i just saying because i never really put effort on work
On these 10 month of working experience ,i learn a lots of money & experience compared to the same class of 2009 ,I consider that as a good thing but sometimes i feels like i slowly fade away to the background ,without that piece of paper ,i feels souless and dont know how to survive more in future

YES I do earn much money for now but does this job can last forever and support my fianical in the future ,we dont know about the future but i do know that it wont last .

I wish that I can have the chance to made in Universiti ,hopefully ,All the best

Friday, October 16, 2009

If you really want this then You can do it

Its not the impossible it just how are you going it make it happen ,Just like Nike Campaign tagline [NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE]
This is what I believe .because if you really want something then I believe you can find a good way to make it happen without hurting anyone or yourself .if you think that is impossible then can you answer me that are you always finding the excuse to make it happen because you know that the impossible its actually a covering up the lie that you dont want to put your effort ?

When i want something ,i will try my best to achieve ,no matter how desperate i am ,in the end of the day i will still see the result ,even the result probably isnt what i am looking for and what i really expect but at least i got something than nothing ,dont just sit there and waiting for the chances to drop from the sky because thats the real impossible that never going to happen .
If you want to reach something you can really do it ,it just the matter of how are you going to do ir and the question is do you really want to do it ?

I am not good at this at all ,somethings in my life that i still finding excuse to make the impossible to happen but at least i put my effort on something in the other hand ,i wish people also can be like ,not everything can be perfect but at least you work and fight for something you love

Thursday, October 15, 2009

October Updates :

I Cant believe Year 0f 2009 its running so fast and i though that i'm still a High School fresh graudated .Anyway Here's Updates of myself in this month .

OCTOBER 2009 .
-So the Salary of this month its pretty good to be honest but to me it still never enough for me because everybody know that i know how to spend money very well

Music
- I brough 4 CD' this month ,Sounds crazy right ? Yeah Now that Artist Gallery Supervisor even chat to me .Anyway I brough Lady Gaga.Mariah Carey & Daughtry 1st Deluxe Edition & 2nd album ,well its quit a lots of money but I enjoy it ,plus she give me 10% discount which is quit nice.

Fashion
- Erm Okay ,This month I spend the most money on clothing ,I mean seriously !!!! I spend about RM600 .I brough Topman Skinny Jeans & Check shirt because i want to dress up like a stylista like what i see in LookBook Site ,Omg its HOT & A Guess V-neck T-shirt and I love it.
Hag !!! I need to control myself haha

Later plan of the month ,I still have plans and deals that i got to take care of .I also need to go to Wawasan Universiti to check update for my study next year

Wake Up from Dream

Its Full of dreams & Hopes ,Cant seperate from reality & fantasy .I refuse to wake up and back to reality facing the deal in my life .
I need to wake up from Dream ,I have to know that there's a huge different between both side .Sometimes in our life ,it seems to be easy to made certain things but when you really put your hands onto it then you would know does it really that simple as what you expect ,thats why we shouldt put judgement on something before you know the real story behind the back .I should always remind myself about it but I just keep forget .

Waking ! Waking ! Waking ! I have a lots of plans and future ahead of me ,The days pass so fast that i didt even reliaze ,when you saw the building around the city getting taller ,you also starts seeing your parents become older .scared of losing something in your life ,while you facing something that annoy you so much in your life ,you wish to fast forward to ingore that problem ,same time we also fast forward our time so much and it could possible make us losing some great moment in our life .

-Please dont forget the people you love when you feeling sad and thinks that people around you doesnt love you anymore .
-Please stop giving excuse when you couldt get something done because you know that excuse is because you are too lazy to face the problem
-Please Remind yourself that you have a great life and apperciate what the god have gave to you while you dont love yourself while you look at the mirror
-Please Let the emotion go out while you feeling sad and wants the tears to drop out from your eyes because you have the right to release what you feels
-Please stay strong and never give up on what you believe in when you facing struggle and obstacle in your life

What kill you isnt what stopping you ,what really killing you is that you block your own and doesnt give yourself a chance to doing what you can do and always finding excuse .
Its not easy to wake up from your dream and back to reality of facing what's in your life that you dont want but please give yourself a chance .

PLEASE ! Because you can do it

Friday, October 9, 2009

Life

Life is short ......
Always reading & hearing people talk about their life's experience and the circumstance,obstancles & the things that they handle in their life ,With every decision they are making it lead them to the next level of their life ,life's a journal we never figure out whats the next chapter until we unfold it by ourself .

I Enjoy my Life ,I have great life ,God gives my almost everything goods for me ,I should learn how to apperciate it ,people said that we should never compared ourself to other people ,dont have jealous or fools over someone life because we dont know their road and how many steps to take them to here .Sometimes I am really afriad to take the next step because i dont really know whats happen in the next chapter of my life .

I guess this is what life is all about ,we dont know until we are 'there' ,if life is predictable then we wouldt call it life ,always had to be prepare to handle the things that we never happen ,stand straight when facing problems and made it through .I do have regret of the things and decision that i had done ,To be honest ,I struggle with myself a lots recently I wants to make a choice and make sure it was no regret but it been on my mind and its bothers me so much .

I wants to achieve something greats because i believe i can do it .

Sunday, October 4, 2009

Beautiful

You're beautiful ! you're beautiful ! you're beautiful ! Its truth .
People said that the most important thing of a person is beautiful come from inside but do you all reliaze that the first impression is basiclly come out from outside ?
For example ,if that person is beautiful in the outside as in good looking or pretty then people would like to make friends and even talk to them ,discover more about them because while you're beautiful ,you basiclly get the spotlight and everybody wants to be your friends ,at this point whether you're beautiful on the inside is another story .

For another example ,there's a person who isnt good looking or not pretty ,while people look at he/she ,they probably dont even bother to care about he/she ,people really care about first impression and the face takes lots of points ,even that person is really beautiful on the inside but if the 'outside' isnt good enough then it already minus points in other people ,isnt it ?

I used to be a fat people and didt get much care besides my family and real friends ,i think that beautiful in the inside is the most important but people always judge the book by its cover ,the rules always play like that ,since i lose weight ,i have more confidents and looking better in terms of overall body of work ,this prove that there's much different /