This should be good

Lately I feeling the pressure at the workplace ,this time the defination of pressure isnt that little gossiping or other tiny thing but the things that really bother up to my head is .

DO I HAVE IT TO EARN PEOPLE TRUST ?!

I Afriad the answer is no from them ,I might be not serious most time and such a little 'bitch' atitude ,i always forgot things and quit didt take the lesson from my mistakes but I know that i have the potential to make something good.

lately they give me much things to do compare to the last month ,the bad news is I feels quit pressure because i'm scare of making mistakes and make them feels dissapointed but i try to look at the good side because if people doesnt trust you enough then why would they give you things to do ? I must earn more their trust
I should be glad that they trust me that i can pull it off ,I no where near good but i will try my best to do it ,even sometimes i might complain but it just the way of me to express .

end of the day after i sleep i reliaze that make me busy its actually a good thing because i scare of being nothing to do ,because that makes me worthless in end of the day .

wish me good luck

i feel

I feels like wants to achieve something and prove to the people that i have the ability to do it .I want to let everyone know that i have the potential ,I wish people can see through this mix personalities of mine and really understand the goods .I want to have chances on myself but i let myself drown into the lake of bad .

I feels that i am such a big hypocritic ,I dislike the people personalities is actually certain angle of my own .Its actually hating your own personalities ,I wish I have the power to changing ,I know that i only keep talking and writing to make up the things to let it seems better but underneath it actually become worst as the days goes .

I want to solve problem but I dont know how to use it and make people think i create the problem .I have to make everything clear and let them know the fine line but I failed every single time because i am the people who stop myself getting better .I think people who dislike me will eventually blocking my way to the lane of succed but actually i am the one who create the people that dislike me due of myself .

I feels tired and frustrated ,I want to reborn in a different way ,I love my personalities and also hate it at the same time ,i feel twisted and Wants to get twisted by people ,I want someone slap to my face to reveal me the reality .I surronded by people who love and support me but i dont know how to apperciate it .I though I understand the meaning of Apperciate but turn out i am just try to show off people that i knew it but its actually covering up and not truly understand.

I want to shut myself in a door of Hopes .I want to have to ladder to let me escape from the bad side of mine to run out from this mystery world .I wish to be smart because i am stupid and it is because every single time when i think i did something smart is actually something very stupid .I am the idiot who never understand the truth .I want to live as normal but i had to choose between good and bad .

I wish to be quite because it is not a part of my personalities , I wish to be quite because people wont know about my bads come out from my mouth ......

I am the one who will destroy myself

LOVE

I love my Life
I love my family ,they are part of my life .I have the best parents in the world .
I love about everything and I apperciate about everything around me

I stand for what I believe

In this world ,Everybody is different ,We all have the different mind ,different dream and different desire .
I believe in hardwork would paid off and when you achieve on something ,you will earn something else much more important .Money isnt something that can balance & define the meaning behind it .if you are not experience it ,then you wont really understands it .

I Pray for the goods in my life ,The Bad Side of my personalities has stop me sometimes ,Thanks for my family specially my supportive parents and sisters who always save me from the mistakes .I Have only have 1 Important thing in my life which is LOVE .
Without it I cant survive alone ,Sorry for not being mature and I always be the love child ,I need to grow up ,My Parents wont be forever next to me ,People will help you but eventually in the end of the day ,is yourself who it can only help your own ,You cant always relay on people to help you .

I stands for what I believe ,its my faith and its my destiny .I might be wrong ,I been did mistakes but i will learn from it .